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Nick and I met about 7 years ago.  Typical boy meets girl, they fall in love and then…he dumped me.

I guess I’m getting a little ahead of myself.
It all started with this photo:

I was living in San Francisco but visiting my hometown (St. George UT) for my little sister’s wedding when I went to lunch with a good friend. On our way out of her office we stopped to talk to her coworker, Bevan. He said he had a son named Nick, who was playing golf at BYU (about 3 hours away) and swore that if he sent a photo of me he’d be here in a hot minute to take me on a date. So I awkwardly posed for a photo and didn’t really think much of it afterward. Apparently, Nick didn’t either because he ever showed up….keep reading[/vc_column_text][/vc_accordion_tab][vc_accordion_tab title=”A Story of Addiction Part I”][vc_column_text]aletterI’ve been wanting to write this post for a very long time.
I’m struggling to understand how to approach it.
My head is swimming with so much I want to say and so much I don’t want said.
Some memories I think are important to share, while other memories I hope will fade away in time, but cannot if written in the ink of the internet.

I want to share my journey through being married to an addict, my own codependency that developed and my recovery from that.
It will take more than one post so I hope you don’t mind if this subject takes a few spots over the next few weeks. (between the usual fun stuff, of course)

I think the best way to begin is with this letter I wrote nearly 3 years ago.[/vc_column_text][/vc_accordion_tab][vc_accordion_tab title=”A Story of Addiction Part II”][vc_column_text]weary{Continued from Part One}
After years of struggling with my addiction to an addict.
After trying to control him and in the process losing control of myself.
After watching my life become something I never imagined it could.

I finally gave up.

I was sitting in my living room, packing up Christian’s baby swing and some overnight clothes to “leave” again for the thousandth time when I finally realized it.
I needed help.
And for the first time the help I knew I needed was not help for my ability to cure Drew, it was help for my ability to help myself.
I finally hated the pain I was in more than I hated the idea of letting go of it.

I had been adamantly against going to Al-Anon meetings before this point. For a barrage of reasons. I didn’t have time, caring for an addict is very time consuming. (Which is kind of like saying I can’t go on a diet because I’m too busy eating) I don’t have a problem, he has the problem. (Something I learned codependents are kind of famous for saying.)[/vc_column_text][/vc_accordion_tab][vc_accordion_tab title=”My Conversion to My Faith”][vc_column_text]IMG_9488-635x423I was born and raised a Mormon, also known as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

Both of my parents are very devout and their love for the gospel was threaded into every part of our lives. I mean, my mom replaced the faces of the ‘Guess Who’ characters with the Prophet and the 12 apostles (the spiritual leaders in our church). “Is yours bald? Does he wear glasses?” It becomes very a long game that way! I loved growing up in a Christ centered home. I loved the values that my parents taught me and I more or less figured everything I learned at church was factual, for a while…

I’m not really a “take my word for it” type person so it didn’t take long into my teen years before I started questioning everything.[/vc_column_text][/vc_accordion_tab][vc_accordion_tab title=”Flawlessness”][vc_column_text]philI have a big scar on my leg I got at summer camp one year.
The true story of how I got it is quite ordinary and boring but that’s not what I think of when I look at it.
I think of me and my best friend Shelly, at 16 deciding the story was rubbish and, since everyone within spitting distance asked about it, we needed a better one.
We concocted this big ol’ elaborate tale involving me and a jealous cowgirl …with spurs.
It became our best conversation starter, the funny go-to story when we needed an ice breaker with cute boys.
We never told any one the truth. Somehow it wasn’t really a lie if we were both in on it.
We told it so often that sometimes still, when people ask about my scar, I have to remind myself what really happened.[/vc_column_text][/vc_accordion_tab][/vc_accordion][/vc_column][/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]about




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    Karen Bolton
    August 16, 2012 at 4:55 pm

    looove your tips!! so easy to follow!

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    Cara Prichard
    August 17, 2012 at 3:44 am

    Hey Cara!! Haha my name is also Cara. How crazy is that?! If never meet any one with the same name as me! So to get started I’m going to be a freshman in about 2 weeks. And im freaking. I have no idea what to do with my hair and makeup, I don’t want to seem im trying to hard. My hair is brown but naturally blonde highlights. It’s curly on the und side and wavy on top. I straighten it almost every day or just out it in a braid. I’m growing it out cause when I was about 11 made the horrible choise of getting a pixie cut. Right now it’s to my arm pit. AHHHH and now the make up. I never really wear a lot but I want to look good. I usually where mac powdered foundation, lip gloss and black mascara, is this ok? You really seem like you know what your doing, and reallllllly need your help. My skin can vary. I usually have some rednes around my nose and chin.

    Thanks sosososososososo much!!! 🙂

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      August 18, 2012 at 2:57 am

      HI Cara! Love your name (especially the SPELLING!) Ugh. I remember Freshman year first day well! Look REALLY pretty but DO NOT look like you had anything to do with wanting to look pretty! haha You sound like you will be just fine! I think that a little bit of powder and some gloss and mascara is PERFECT for everyday wear! If you want to mix it up though I saw try a BB cream. They are so easy to apply and go on really natural so you won’t feel like you are wearing a bunch of makeup. Plus they look glowy, which is always nice! Good luck and let me know how it goes!!
      Love, Cara

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        August 29, 2012 at 3:08 am

        thanks so much for posting the smokey eye, your application makes it so easy to follow…………………. love your blog

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    August 17, 2012 at 7:07 am

    Just stumbled upon your blog. Loving it! Great videos and posts. Totally entertaining and informative. Looking forward to more posts! Congrats on the engagement too!

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      August 18, 2012 at 2:58 am

      Thanks so much!

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    August 18, 2012 at 8:10 pm

    Hi Cara!! I love love love all your tips and tricks. You personally have convinced me to try to curl my hair again. ( I have a lot and I mean a lot of hair but its not super thick, I basically just have a lot of strands ) Anyways, my hair would never hold a curl and always looked so un-natural but you have changed all that. I now curl my hair and your tips totally work. Now to makeup: I use alot of the same products you do (makeup forever foundation, mac eyeshadows, urban decay primer, etc) but I still feel like when I take pictures and look in the mirror after putting on all this makeup that I dont even look like I have any make up on. Eyeliner, eyeshadow, and maskcara all seem to just not be there? Do I need to put more make up on or do I need to do my make up in better light? Help!

    Thanks sooo much 🙂

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    August 18, 2012 at 8:35 pm

    Hey, my names Caroline, and i’m 17. I’m wondering how you became a makeup artist . It is what i really want to do, i’m just not sure how to get started, how to get my license, so on. Also how did you get your own blog started? Thanks so much, I love your blog by the way(:

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    Michelle P
    August 20, 2012 at 3:02 am

    I stumbled upon your website via pinterest and let me tell you that I think that you are amazingggggg. I love your tips and videos. Keep them coming!!

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      August 20, 2012 at 9:34 pm

      Thanks so much! Michelle!

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    August 23, 2012 at 12:02 am

    Came across your website on pinterest, LOVE it!

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    August 23, 2012 at 5:35 am

    Hi Cara! Love the new look of yor site and all your helpful tips!!!!! I am addicted to you!

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    August 25, 2012 at 12:59 am

    I love all the advice that you give! (I even love your “rambling” I do it too.) But I was wondering if you have any tips on eye makeup for fair toned people, if I were to wear some of the makeup on here i’d look like i’m dying lol. So if you know any ideas to try PLEASE help! (:

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    Alexandria Warden
    August 25, 2012 at 8:39 am

    I stumbled upon your blog on pintrest and I’m loving it. Great tips!
    Was wondering what you recommend as a good brush for long hair? I recently was reading that boar brushes were the way to go but I have incredibly thick hair and it doesn’t feel like I’m actually brushing my hair like a plastic brush does. Any suggestions on what would be the best kind of brush to use?

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    Maegan Dodds
    August 27, 2012 at 3:18 pm

    Cara!! I love, love, love, your blog!!! I myself am a Utah girl and saw your blog on Pinterest…May I say that you are stunning 🙂 I’m make up obsessed and love all your tutorials and tips, and general advice!! I know this may sound kinda corny, but being a girl with big brown eyes, and not thinking she was pretty when she was younger and got teased for having big eyes. It took me many years to come to own myself and embrace these eyes!! All your words and stories are great for all those young impressionable girls out there to own who they are…I am following u on Pinterest and your blog and can’t wait to see more posts…..Thanks again!!

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    August 28, 2012 at 4:31 pm

    Love your blog!!! You do ramble some, but I think it’s endearing. You make really good videos, and your tips are great. I’m totally going to try some of these… Thanks!

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    August 31, 2012 at 5:17 pm

    Hi there! I love love your videos!! Sooo easy to follow!!. My question: How did you get started in make up? Any tips for a new b? U r amazing!! Thank you!!!

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      August 31, 2012 at 5:42 pm

      THanks Judith! I got started by reading Kevin Accoin’s Books Making faces and face forward! They are INCREDIBLE! Then I just worked at makeup counters and practiced on everyone I could. Good luck! 🙂

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    September 1, 2012 at 4:03 am

    HI, i just found your blog via pinterest and never follow blogs but yours is amazing! I love how you dont just use expensive make up which im terrible at spending to much on mac and such because i dont know if the cheaper brands are good. Im so excited to try all the looks you do! I do have a question; what brushes do i buy for contouring? Also how would you feel about me sending a pic and you telling me where i should be highlighting/ contouring for my face type? Thanks so much for a wonderful blog! Currently pregnant and cant wait to try these out and feel pretty.

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    September 1, 2012 at 11:04 pm

    Hey Cara,

    So I have a question for you, I am trying to grow my hair out…. I try to use as little heat on it as possible; but went into a hair stylist and she said my hair was way damaged, cut off about an inch or two of my hair (which took forever to grow) and then gave me horrendous straight across bangs… Yeah I kinda resemble Lloyd Christmas… what do I do to repair this and make my hair grow faster? I’ve been doing biotin, I try to baby my hair, but maybe I’m not doing enough. Help????

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    September 2, 2012 at 12:11 am

    Hey girly! I <3 you're Blogs/Vids! You are an inspiration to me, thank you for all your tips on hair and makeup. You are the kind of woman in this world that makes life more fun 🙂 Ps: Your gorgeous! i love your hair 🙂

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    Brittney Burgos
    September 3, 2012 at 2:58 am

    Hi, Cara! I found your website on Pintrest tonight, and I have spent countless hours watching videos and reading your blog. Def will keep up with your blog.. Your so beautiful & your little man is so handsome . <3 xoxo

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    September 4, 2012 at 5:09 pm

    I am so glad I found your blog. I am a new mama to an 11 month old and I have been in such a rut! In fact, after styling my hair this morning, I became so flustered and I decided I was chopping my mid back length hair off. I came across your blog and have hope! Thank you thank you for helping a flustered mama get some groove back!

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    September 9, 2012 at 6:52 pm

    Hey Cara! I love your blog. You are so hillarious and all of your tips work! Keep it coming 🙂

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    September 10, 2012 at 3:33 pm

    Love the “nude” post and I pinned it to my beauty board on Pinterest.
    However, when I clicked on the link to find the Sephora nude color, the result showed that the product is not available. Would you suggest another comparable nude color?


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    September 10, 2012 at 7:03 pm

    LOVE your whole website! lol Your tips and tutorials are awesome!!! Can’t wait to try them all!! <3

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    September 17, 2012 at 9:24 pm

    Do you have any pictures of your natural color? I’m blonde and want to go dark and love your color.

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    September 19, 2012 at 3:42 pm

    I just discovered your blog from Pinterest today and Its fantastic! I have been poking around the blog and I have a few questions. They may have already been answered in here somewhere so I apologize if they are a duplicate!
    First your hair is gorgeous! What is your natural color?
    Secondly, do you use self tanner if so, do you have a less expensive but good suggestion? I have had skin cancer so the sun and I are not friends, but I hate being pale. I have an olive completion which is great but needs a boot every now and again!
    Thank you for taking the time to answer some of my questions and congratulations on your soon to be marriage!

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    September 23, 2012 at 5:55 am

    Love your blog! Very helpful as I am also a natural blonde who’s gone dark. It’s hard to find other like us : ) Your tips are great…keep ’em coming!

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    September 29, 2012 at 9:28 am

    Thumb up!!!

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    Chrissy Dixon
    October 1, 2012 at 5:56 pm

    Hi Cara! You are so fun and bubbly! I love it! Not to mention gorg. 🙂 I am also a blondie who as gone to the dark side (more of a dark brown/mahogany) and love your beauty blog!!! I have 3 daughters under 4 years old and my beauty has taken the back seat for a few years but Im so excited I found you. It’s time for this Momma to have a little pampering and feel gorg again. Thanks! My husband will thank you too, hehe. Looking forward to more!

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    October 16, 2012 at 9:00 am

    I am a beauty addict as well and I am obsessed with your site! Although I love all things beauty and hair I can barely get my hair in a pony tail! I’ve got to figure all of this out because I have a baby girl with a TON of hair! Thank you so much for your easy to follow tips…I’m trying the twirl swirl during her next nap!

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    October 18, 2012 at 11:55 am

    Cara, I’ve been toying with coloring my hair darker, but I’m realllllly scared! In all my 26 years I’ve never touched my hair in that way. Do you happen to have a picture of your “dirty dishwater” hair color that’s fairly recent? And by fairly recent, I mean just not from when you were a kid. I need something to compare it to 🙂 Thanks!

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    October 18, 2012 at 6:29 pm

    Hi, Cara! )) I’m from Russia and I find your blog amazing!! )) So many tips! It’s great!
    And I defenetly want to know: do you have a post about your white beautiful teeths I meat how are you whiting them! So do you?))
    Want to be as beauty as you are ))
    Sorry for my english.

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    October 20, 2012 at 12:07 pm

    Hey Cara,
    I’ve been following your blog for almost a year now and I had no idea you lived in Utah! That is also the great state that I live in as well! 😀 I love all that you do!

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    October 20, 2012 at 5:30 pm

    Hi Cara! i stumble across you blog on pinterest! I’m very impress:) I’m also from southern Utah !!! And i was wondering if you ever do classes or something along the sort.? anyways love your stuff and look forward for more!

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    October 23, 2012 at 5:35 pm

    Hi Cara,

    I’m in the military and I always have to have my hair in a ridiculously tight bun. My hair is literally cracking. Any idea how I can fix this?

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      October 23, 2012 at 6:42 pm

      Hi Julia! Wow all of my love and support for you first of all! Thank you! and secondly, are you required to have it in a tight bun? and what products do you use on it?

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